Desember

Halo, tidak terasa ya sudah masuk bulan Desember dan tanggal 19. Tidak terasa juga ketika buka blog sore ini lihat posting terakhir bulan April. Sudah lama sekali tidak menulis blog. Entah kenapa mungkin karena terlalu sibuk dengan media sosial yang makin lama makin menyita perhatian dan waktu di sela-sela jadwal buruh yang ketat. Iya. Sekarang jadi buruh. Buruh yang berangkat kadang pagi kadang siang dan pulang kadang sore kadang malam. Tidak menentu, tergantung jadwal. Jadwal seorang honorer lepas dan freelancer. Ya begitulah.

Kemarin adalah hari terakhir dan setelah semua nilai diserahkan dari tingkat TK, SMP, SMA, untung yang satu tidak minta setor nilai juga, akhirnya sekarang bisa bernapas. Bernapasnya setengah lega karena waktu lihat buku rekening, rekeningnya kurus kering. Coba gemuk, bisa lega yang lega banget. Ah, lagi-lagi diri kurang bersyukur ya.

Bagaimanapun ini sudah bulan Desember. Bulan terakhir di tahun 2015. Waktu lihat ke belakang lagi, dan mengingat-ingat apa yang sudah dilakuin dan dikerjakan rasanya ada stagnansi yang entahlah bagaimana rasanya tidak bisa diekspresikan, tidak bisa diungkapkan, sampai akhirnya sore tadi nekat banget kirim wassap ke salah satu kakak bilang mau curhat. Tapi waktu ditangggapin tidak tahu apa yang mau dicurhatin. Sampai akhirnya ngomong yang apalah dan ditanggapi yang apalah dan berakhir apalah juga. Untung bukan apa-apaan.

23

I only have one thing that I hate in this world and that was getting older! People get older year by year and I just hate it. That’s why for past four years I hide my birthday in facebook. I didn’t like someone gimme birthday greeting since it reminded me that I am getting older. Besides I didn’t like someone gimme birthday greeting just they thought that they had to greet me for my birthday without sincerely wanted to. So in every year I would spent my birthday with people who really care and sincerely gimme birthday greeting and surprises. It was what I thought for past four years.

This year, exactly two days before my birthday, I decided to open my birthday into public and my intention for doing that is to try something that I hate most, accepting birthday greeting from people who know my birthday from facebook and realized that maybe some of them just send me the birthday greeting just because they have to without they want to.

In the morning, I woke up because of the ringing of my phone. I checked and the name of my old friend  appeared. She is one of my best friend since I was in Junior High School and she is one of my friends who always gimme birthday greeting in my birthday, and she always became the number one who greet me in my birthday after my mom and dad. Unfortunately after my age now, there is no man who became the first person to say happy birthday to me and I am okay. LOL

Nadiah, the name of my friends, send me a message through SMS and Line. She gave a good effort to make my birthday, this one was a meme she send to me. (ps. Thank you for giving me this, Nad although this wasn’t your first time giving me such a greeting).

Nadiah's birthday greeting

After Nadiah, honestly I waited people to write on my wall since I open my birthday into public (it’s funny since I was waiting), but there was no one, and what surprised me was friends, new and old, send me short message service and greeted me. Some of them I didn’t know who since I changed my phone but I could feel their sincerity. Besides, friends also greeted me through whattsap, Line, and Facebook Messenger. Some of them send me cute pictures, and I am fuckin' love those all.

But I still curious why there was no one wrote on my wall and I asked my brother to check my facebook account and I remember that few months ago when I was abroad I changed my facebook setting and didn’t allow people to write in my wall. -.-

Because of that I realized that all this time I was too arrogant related to what I thought about others. And I do realized that I the one who do not have sincerity to say happy birthday to my friends. I forgot their birthday, even when facebook reminded me about my friends’ birthday I kept ignore it and did not care about it.

I do apologize about this arrogance and I do appreciate everyone who constantly saying happy birthday to me every year even I didn’t do the same thing to them. I am grateful since now I know that I am surrounded by people whom care, and love me.

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In the night through skype one of my friends asked me what I did in my birthday, and I didn’t know what I should answer since there was no surprise on that day and I was busy with thingy job.

One day after my birthday, I came to Rumah Hebat Indonesia to talk about outing class that will be held this weekend. After I parked my motorcycle, one of Adek RHI approached me and engaged me to go to her house. I didn’t know what’s going on since she didn’t allow me to go to RHI. After 10 minutes, Selo came to her house and told that I should came to RHI now.

He opened the door and RHI was full of adek-adek RHI who surprised me with a bread and three little candles. Chandra, one of Adek RHI, gave me flowers suddenly after I entered the room while others singing happy birthday for me. I couldn’t write what I felt that time. I was too speechless to express my feeling. They really made my birthday, yes they did!

Here they are. Adek-adek RHI and me.
Sure I love them and I didn't know when it started.

Here I inserted the video when Adek-adek RHI gimme birthday surprised. 

And now please welcome two digits of my age this year! 23! 

Following is two birthday greetings from my beloved friends.

This one was birthday greeting from Agus Widodo

This birthday greeting was from little Wafa and her mother. So cute!

And so many birthday greetings came to me but I couldn't show it there.

For you who send me birthday greeting on my birthday, I am really glad received all of that. Thank you for all the wishes and hopes, I am amen-ing all of the prayers. Thank you friends. Hope to see you all near time.

New Beginning

After having my thesis defense in the end of November, I am now currently jobless and I do this by choice. After finishing my thesis and waiting for my (official) university graduation, I think I need to give my body and my mind rest for a while.

I am jobless (until March at least), People in our society avoid the word ‘jobless’ since jobless means you do nothing in your life. So now here I am doing other things instead of having job. Reading books that been gathering dust since I didn’t touch them for a long time. Doing social activities with Rumah Hebat Indonesia (RHI). Gaining donation and sending books to the remote area of Indonesia. Meeting old friends. Travelling to many places alone (it’s different when you are travelling in duty from your university and travelling by yourself).

When I rode my motorcycle on my way to RHI yesterday, I was thinking what I will be doing with my knowledge. What will I doing with new understanding about new things, new understanding in teaching, What I can do for this nation. Conferences, competitions, seminars, workshops, international friendship, what will I do with all this. Do I need to place them in some parts of my mind then I call them back when I need?

Surakarta, December 2014

8.23 AM

18 Facts about Me

Saking banyaknya yang udah post macam ini di instagram, facebook, maupun twitter, jadi kepengen juga ikut-ikutan main yang kayak ginian. Haha.. So this is mine. Here we go!

1. Cules (penggemar Barcelona Footbal Club FCB). Penggemar berat (freak?) Lionel Messi. Selalu edan kalo liat Messi di TV, facebook, instagram, even di foto itu Messi lagi gendong Thiago ato makan malam sama Antonella. Pernah punya cita-cita punya pacar yang sama-sama penggemar Messi, jadi dia bisa maklum kalo liat aku edan tiap liat Messi.
2. Punya 10 things to do before I die. Salah satunya pergi ke Barcelona dan ketemu Messi!
3. Senang tak terhingga tiap bisa menikmati pemandangan dari balik jendela kereta api maupun bus. Apalagi ditambah rintik-rintik hujan di luar yang air hujannya balapan di kaca jendela.
4. Pesawat! Kalo denger suara pesawat langsung keluar ke halaman atau minimal mandangin jendela dengan mata berbinar-binar. Kalo liat pesawat dari kejauhan bisa loncat-loncat girang semacam belum pernah naik pesawat sama sekali.
5. Hobi main ke bandara buat liat pesawat landing maupun take off. Semacam punya ikatan batin sama orang-orang yang ada di dalam pesawat sampai punya ilusi bilang selamat datang dan selamat jalan ke mereka.
6. Belakangan punya cita-cita kerja di Angkasa Pura wilayah Indonesia Timur. Tapi sekaligus punya cita-cita kerja di bidang social development yang mengharuskan aku pindah dari satu kota ke kota lain di Indonesia. Dan dalam satu waktu juga punya cita-cita menetap di Kota Bukittinggi.
7. Suka alat musik tapi nggak pernah pandai main satupun dari mereka. Pernah belajar piano, seruling, gamelan, gitar dan failed!
8. Suka pakai kaos kaki hitam. Kalo kotor ngga keliatan euy. Haha
9. Suka nyampah di mia-febriana.blogspot.com
10. Bisa tidur dimana aja.
11. Paranoid sama ular dan buaya. Bulu kuduk langsung berdiri tiap liat dua binatang ini di foto ataupun di TV apalagi kalo di dunia nyata bisa langsung pingsan mungkin.
12. Punya hobi blogwalking. Setiap blogwalking bisa berjam-jam di depan laptop bahkan sampai lewat tengah malam.
13. Penyuka lagu-lagu Owl City dan Banda Neira.
14. Penyuka air. Edan tiap liat air. Pantai, air terjun, sungai, sumur!
15. Pernah jadi korban bullying di sekolah. Bisa dipastikan bukan gegara aku lebih cantik dari kakak kelas! Haha.
16. Pernah keracunan daun bawang dan sampai sekarang jadi trauma kalo liat daun bawang apalagi buat makan! >,<
17. Suka mi instan matang maupun mentah T.T
18. Suka nglebihin jam jadi 30 menit lebih cepet. Ngaruh? Ngga! Haha.